When my son was a baby, he didnt sleep at night and wanted to be held in the day.

My husband commutes long hours to and from work and in a city like Lagos, he got home exhausted everyday. He would hold the baby for a few hours then fall asleep.My mum came to help me after delivery, but left a little after 3weeks cos she also had young children of her own. So I had no help and a 3 weeks old baby. I was always exhausted and even started having sleep paralysis ( which was the scariest thing ever) One night I thought of throwing him out the window. I didnt know where the thoughts came from, but I told those around me how depressed I was feeling and my family arranged help for me. A friend of mine told me her neighbour had to come and help hide knives and sharp objects bcos she felt suicidal after childbirth( she was living in a faraway country and her family in Nigeria) Feeling overwhelmed as a new mum is perfectly ok. Please know that this shall pass.